Yesterday was 9/11/2014, the thirteenth anniversary of a day that forever changed America. Lives were lost and sacrifices were made by many brave and heroic people. Most of us can remember where we were and what we were doing when we heard the news of the attack on the twin towers. We will never forget.

One year ago today, September 12, 2013 was the day that forever changed me and my family. It’s the day we received the news that our daughter Brooke had passed away.

It was a moment in time I never thought would happen. Our doorbell rang around midnight and two local police officers were at the door. We’ve all seen that scenario in the movies many times and we never expect it to actually happen to us. But it happens to many people and that night it happened to us. The officers brought the news that Brooke and gotten very ill and after being rushed to the hospital in Kansas City she had not survived. It’s a stunning piece of news to receive and complete recovery from the shock never happens. At that moment life changed forever.

It still seems surreal even after a year has gone by. Not a day goes by that I don’t question whether it really happened or not. Some days I still expect a text or a call from her. The pain has subsided though not completely. She is constantly on my mind and that dull ache is always there.

It’s amazing how life has forever changed. It’s changed the way I view life. It’s changed the way I react to tragedy. It’s impacted my philosophy, my beliefs, my theology, my priorities, the way I treat other people, the way I view other people and other cultures.

My faith in God hasn’t changed although I’ve questioned many things I believe and why I believe them. I’ve made drastic changes in my theology while things that remain true I still cling to.

I won’t ask you to imagine how you would feel if your 34 year old daughter unexpectedly died, because there’s no way you can know if it hasn’t happened to you. I can tell you this much, you would be surprised what will go through your mind and the questions you would ask. I pray you never have the experience.

I thank God for Brooke Erin Reasoner Logan. On the day she was born April 2, 1979 I was forever changed. Her short life of 34 years forever changed me. On the day she died September 12, 2013 I was forever changed.

I love you Brooke. You’ve changed me forever. IMG_0199

Cogitate on this,

Gene Reasoner