As I Get Older……..

Image Don’t get me wrong. I’m not old….at least I don’t feel old. I’l be 64 soon but in my mind  I’m still somewhere in my forties. “As a man thinks in his heart…..” I really do believe that.

The most amazing change I’m experiencing as I’m advancing in my years is the things that are becoming more important to me while things that were once top priority are  now at the bottom of the list.

I’m not being morbid or wanting this earth life to hurry to it’s end but I find myself thinking about moving into my eternity. I spend quite a bit of time meditating on the mark I want to leave on people that know me and in particular, my family. A legacy that will influence my family and friends for good and bring glory to my heavenly Father is something that is at the forefront of my mind.

I’ve worked hard the last few years keeping my mind renewed to the Word of God. It’s a learning and growing process that requires commitment. The more I devour the Word the more it becomes a life style and I realize that I live more in the spirit realm than I do the physical realm. As a result things that used to be so important are not as important anymore and the things that really make a difference come into focus.

I’m also learning to question some things that I thought I was sure about. I want to make sure that principles and core values I live by are based on truth and not just tradition. I certainly appreciate what my ancestors taught me but I have to know what I believe and why I believe the things I do. My beliefs have to be according to the Word, not tradition. I have made hard decisions to turn from some things I was taught and believed for years, to receive new revelation that has brought great freedom and understanding.

One of the most difficult situations to manage is how to deal with lost children who have turned from their faith. It’s something I never thought I’d face. I certainly never considered it or prepared for it. Being raised in a Christian family and always involved in church and ministry has been a way of life and I’ve just assumed my children and grandchildren would come along and do the same. Never gave it a thought that any of them would ever question the truth we had taught them. But when they do it hits you like a ton of bricks. What do you do? How do you react?

Needless to say, I’ve done much soul searching, crying and praying. One of the first things to come is guilt. The enemy accuses me of being a bad parent, spending too much time going after a career, being gone too much, I’ve heard all his lies. I’ve spent many sleepless nights beating myself up and wishing I could do everything over again. 

Finally, I came to a point where I just decided not to accept anymore guilt. Sure I made plenty of mistakes but I’ve done the best I could. So I received forgiveness for the mistakes and moved on. The time I have left is what I have to work with so I will make it count. 

Probably the most important thing I’ve learned so far is that preaching to my children is not the answer. I don’t have the persuasive power to change their minds about anything. The best thing I can do for them is live what I believe in front of them and to do it in love. God’s love is the most powerful force in the universe. His love and his love alone will turn the hearts of my children and grandchildren back to the truth.

I will not let anything cause division or confusion in the family. The enemy would like nothing more than to split families apart and he uses some of the things I’m talking about here to accomplish it. I won’t let it happen. I seek wisdom daily. Wisdom to know when to speak and when to keep my mouth shut. 

I pray in the Spirit a lot these days. I’m thankful for that gift. 

I make declarations of faith over my family. I speak words of faith and love over them. When I pray for them I don’t pray the problem I pray the answer. I’m careful not to speak idle words over them but words of life. When I look at my children I see them full of the love and Grace of God. I see them reconciled and restored to God. My family circle will not be broken! I declare it!

Yes, it’s amazing the way your thinking changes as you get older. Walking in the Spirit and being led by the Spirit brings peace and rest. It’s the only way to live.

These are things I cogitate on these days. How about you?

Gene Reasoner

John 3:30




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